Not a good place
I was writing a letter, as those help calm me down and help me understand the issues I am dealing with. I was writing one explaining some of the issues I have been having recently but it was quickly turning in to a suicide letter, which is not good as I am not suicidal anymore, I have gotten to a place that is much better.
In short I was going to say that I was really frustrated with dysphoria and some major life events. I am now able to look past my dysphoria and have excepted somethings such as; I am not cis, and I never will or would want to be cis. I am a little further away from being straight than I though my introspection and ass says about 60% further away than I thought and not only do I like men, but I like women, and people who fall outside of the binary.
I dealt with some massive self growth that I am still beginning to realize. With this growth I hope that I have not damaged relationships so much that they cannot be repaired as they are important to me and have all helped me realize the woman I am and where I am going.